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Monday, December 29, 2008

a bowl full of dirt

I was invited to lead worship and preach yesterday.  I'm not normally one to post sermons, but this one turned out pretty good.  Thought I'd share.

 

In the mean time...live well...laugh often...love always.

 

Delibrio Animousus,

 

Sir Aquinas

 

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I grew up on a farm.  It’s the kind of childhood I wish I could grant to more kids of this age.  Because it was a childhood of dirt and grime.  It was a childhood of long summer days and hard work.  Of building hay bale forts in the barn and exploring creeks and sloughs.  Of seed ticks and chiggers.

 

Mine was a childhood of filthy and calloused hands.

 

Primarily, we stuck to raising cattle in the early days, but in addition to being a farmer, my father was also a produce broker.  One year he got the idea that he wanted to expand his portfolio.  So in a cooperative venture with some friends we planted ten acres of cabbage.

 

There was just a little problem.  We weren’t dirt farmers.  We grew cows not plants.

 

We didn’t have the infrastructure or the experience.

 

So it wasn’t long before the weeds started growing up over the cabbage and dad had us out there with garden hoes.  And it wasn’t long after that that the rabbits discovered this culinary wonder which led to my older brother riding on the front tractor axle with a shotgun through the fields.

 

Try getting this sort of entertainment on a Wii

 

And then the beavers moved in. Yes, the beavers.

 

The beavers began to reek havoc on our cabbage.  Every single morning we would find more plants eaten down to the root.  The problem was that they were doing most of the damage at night.  So we tried different remedies from dogs to hanging transistor radios from trees in desperate attempts to scare them away.

 

Nothing worked.

 

It came down to one and only one solution.  The cabbage patch became a combat zone.  We were put on nightly patrols armed to the teeth.  Well... some us were armed to the teeth.  I was armed with a BB gun.  Sure it was a piece of savage blue steel fury, but it was a BB gun non-the-less.

 

One night a friend of mine came over to help me with the midnight patrol.  Otherwise known as the graveyard watch.  We’re sitting there in the deathly silence and somewhere off in the distance is the faint song of a transistor radio.  BB guns at the ready and flashlights in hand. 

 

We were ready for anything.  Rodents of terror, bring your worst.

 

Hours passed.   Nothing happened.  .  We just sat there quietly talking.

 

And talking.

 

And then the inevitable thing happened when two ten year old boys are sitting in a cabbage patch at two o’clock in the morning.

 

We freaked each other out.

 

And not just a little bit.  We reached the pinnacle of freaked-out-adem.

 

There’s another critical piece of information you may want to know about this particular field which is relevant to the context of this story.  It bordered the Fourche La Fave River.  And as we were sitting there facing the darkness of the cabbage patch, our backs were turned to the bank of the river.

 

You know...where the beavers lived.

 

In retrospect I now understand this to be a mistake.

 

Because then it happened. 

 

It’s hard for me to adequately describe our bottled terror any more than it is possible for me to describe the moment before a Mentos falls into a diet Coke.

 

But the reaction was pretty close to the same.

 

It started with this whining sound and then

 

BAM!  BAM! BAM!

 

Now as an adult I realize this was the sound of beavers slapping the water.

 

As a ten year old boy it was nothing less than the sound of a giant creature coming from the murky waters to eat us.

 

And it was enough to transform two brave ten year old boys into a couple of swearing and screaming six year old girls.

 

You know how when we were kids, the road runner cartoons had their own laws of physics?  Like when Wile E. Coyote would fall off a cliff there would be this moment when everything but his eyes fell, but the eyes would stay in suspended animation, look at you and blink a couple times before plummeting off the cliff.

 

The rate at which we abandoned our post would have left the road runner out of breath.

 

We were moving.

 

It was probably a quarter of a mile to the house from that field.  A quarter of a mile down a very dark and foreboding dirt road.  My buddy Nathan was in the lead pointing his light and gun in front of us while I was following on his heels with my gun and light pointed behind us expecting to see some horrific beast crashing through the darkness at any moment.

 

And then one did.  But it was in front of us, not behind.

 

It’s a bit of a blur now, and really all I remember is flashes of screams and lights and flailing arms.  But what actually happened is that on our sprint to the house we startled a sleeping cow who jumped up in front of us.

 

I don’t know how many times we shot her.

 

Let’s just say it’s a good thing we had BB guns and not automatic weapons.

 

But all we could focus on in that moment was the light of the house in the distance and making it there with our lives.

 

Turns out my parents were still up and really before my memory went blank the last thing I could remember was my dad just about falling out of his recliner laughing.

 

This is a pretty round about way of saying that I have a certain “heightened” appreciation of the situations our dear shepherds found themselves in.

 

“Don’t be afraid”  You have GOT to be kidding me.

 

But here’s the part I love.

 

It’s absolute terror combined with absolute hope.

 

It’s God coming to ordinary people with a new story.  And that story is, “It’s going to be ok.  I’m going to walk with you from here on.  I’m going to show you the Kingdom I’ve been dreaming about.”

 

I know you’re scared.  I know you are hurting.  I know the world has forgotten you. 

 

I’m coming to make it better.  But not just that.  I’m coming to show you how to make it better for others. 

 

I’m going to show you how to bring My Kingdom to earth.

 

To hear stories of the Methodist movement in the early days is be a part of something amazing.  They were these people traveling around this country on horseback and living off the kindness of strangers.  They established communities, proclaimed the way of Jesus to masses in open fields.  They built schools, started hospitals, took care of orphans and widows.

 

One thing is for sure.  Where the Methodists were, the Kingdom of God was at hand. 

 

But then time moves on and the organism that was the Methodist movement became an organization called the Methodist Church.  Still growing, still doing lots of good, but lacking the passion and risk of its early days.  Focus turned toward getting people to ‘come’ to church rather than the ‘church’ going out to the community it served.

 

There are places like Congo where the danger still is a very real phenomenon and Methodists are risking their necks to bring the Kingdom to the remote places of the world.  In fact one of the times I went to Congo I met a teenage boy named, Pascal.

 

Pascal used to come to my house every day to practice his English.  On the last day of my stay he stood in front of my video camera and made me promise him that I would put him in the video.  I thought it was a pretty bold statement and so I asked him why.

 

I’ll never forget his response.  He said, “Because I don’t want to be forgotten.”

 

What do you do with something like that?  What do you say?

 

Because it’s not that he just wanted me to remember him, it’s that he needed to know there was hope.  He needed to know that someone outside Congo knew his story and would tell it to others.

 

Our faith from the very beginning has been about confronting fear with hope.  At knowing that no matter how awful our circumstances are, there is always hope.  And just as importantly it is in our DNA to offer that hope to others.  It’s risky, and it’s filthy.  It’s sometimes irritating and frustrating, but it is who we are called to be.

 

You’ll notice there is a bowl of dirt up here by the altar.  There’s nothing special about it.  It’s just dirt.  But before you leave here today I’d like to ask you to do something for me.  I’d like you to wash your hands in it.  You’ve all heard of holy water, perhaps then you might consider this “Holy Dirt”.  It’s to be a reminder that ours is not a faith that is only interested with how clean our noses are, but equally how dirty our hands are.

 

It’s the dirt that comes with getting low to help someone else up.

 

It’s the dirt that comes with recognizing the humanity in the homeless.

 

It’s the dirt that comes with helping someone rebuild their life.

 

With the 2 a.m. call from the addict.

 

It’s the dirt that comes through the act of giving someone hope.

 

Plain old, nasty, dirt under your fingernails hope.

 

 

So fear not.  I bring to you good news of great joy that will be for ALL people.  Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you;  he is Christ the Lord.

 

You have not been forgotten and I bring you hope.

 

In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit.

Amen


Monday, November 10, 2008

questions on freedom

It's a rainy day on campus.  To quote Guns and Roses, it's a "cold November rain".  I can't believe I just quoted Guns and Roses.  That's so cheesy.

Declaration of IndependenceSpeaking of November, we've hit the holy month of sportsmen, otherwise known as deer season.  It was a beautiful weekend, pitiful in terms of actual results, but I got a lot of reading done.  I started reading the biography of John Adams.  There's been a lot of talk lately about the state of the United States, the church, etc. and I'm as guilty as anyone else about spouting off what my personal views are which are primarily backed by scattered quotes and memories of history classes.  So I figured it would be a good idea to go back to the beginning and try get a better understanding of the 'spirit' of the original documents by the the men who crafted them.  The big thing that's jumped out at me is the differences between John Adams and Thomas Jefferson.  Both brilliant, both entirely different types of men.  Adams was outspoken and very concerned with factoring in the "human condition" while Jefferson was much more methodical in terms of  a scientific mind, yet held much less value in the factors human nature would play in the role of law.

One big point I'm trying to discover is the role of government protecting its citizens from tyranny.  The idea behind defense against tyrannical governments is one obvious factor.  But what about tyrannies within?  What about the notion of the tyranny of the corporation?  What role should government play then?  It seems to me that notions of self-evident truths that if men are created equal, government's role is primarily to create an even playing field for all citizens.  At least that seems a logical conclusion, but I may be wrong.  There are obvious correlations with the development of unions and West Virginia coal mines, but is this socialism or a different sort of checks and balances that lay within a working man's reach?

But the overwhelming question is the notion of the lifestyle of a free man?  What does it actually mean to be free?  More importantly, how should a free man live in this age of globalization, economies in crisis, 401K's and web 2.0 technology?  Should I make a distinction between public education and socialized medicine?  If so, then tell me why?  What does it mean to be a good citizen?  What of self sacrifice?  What of ambition?  What of wealth?  What of common purpose?

Again, these are simply questions.  I've tried to put my existing opinions on hold for the time being.  One thing does seem clear to me though, that John Adams was adamant about the notions of checks and balances within government because within those rules order and reason could prevail and it would be through order and reason that the republic and freedom could exist.

In the mean time...live well...laugh often...love always.

Delibrio Animosus,

Billy

 


Wednesday, November 05, 2008

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By Derek Webb
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the morning after

It was kind of like waking up the next morning wondering if that really happen...Yep, I'm pretty sure it did.

My classes were pretty well divided, though mainly more Republican leaners who were less than thrilled with the outcome.  But there were those whose joy could hardly be contained.  What I'm staying is that the general mood ran from "Disgusted" to "Fantabulus".  To survey my friends, there are tears on both sides of the aisle.

I cast my vote for Obama in a state that went decisively for McCain.  It's the way things work and I'm ok with that.  I cast my vote against President Bush in the last election and as much as I despise the current administration, he is still my president and I am still a citizen of this country.  If you want to see what happens when the citizens don't respect democracy take a look here.  Immediately I heard discussions (and sadly bets) about how long would it be before there would be an assassination attempt on President-elect Obama.  One of my black students said that all the talk really bothered him and I asked him if all the suspicion was simply because Obama is black.  He said he thought it was.

And on the surface that might seem like a logical conclusion.

But I don't think it is.  I think it's because there are a lot of people who believe he has the potential to actually cause real change that's not going to work for their benefit.  He's walking in as someone who seems to have 'leading' on his mind rather than "governing".  And for those who are vested in the status quo, that's a scary prospect.  Change is never...ever...a comfortable process.

In the counter culture of the Christian world I heard a couple of outspoken prophet types quoted repeatedly.  Both Shane Claiborne and Derrek Webb had some pretty profound things to say about this election and voting.  Both could pretty much be summed up in encouraging people to either vote based on what the morality of their faith compelled them toward or not to vote in the election based off those same convictions.  But, both men essentially come to the conclusion that we will not have a savior in the White House.  For that matter we will never have an anti-Christ either.  It is simply the lives we lead as citizens and/or Christians that will make these determinations.  Love is a verb and there is no fear in love.

Truly these things come from a perspective of value.  The pop-Christian world loves to spout off about this being a "Christian" nation which runs completely counter to the notions of separation of church and state.  We are free to live as Christians without the permission of the state and we are free to act as citizens without the interference of a religion.  But it's this dynamic that gets many of us hung up.

It's this dynamic that allows both to exist. we are also free to live as both dedicated citizens and dedicated Christians.  We are given opportunities to make our individual lives, our collective lives and our spiritual lives as vibrant and as dynamic or as dissenting as we wish.

And this is something that was never possible in Rome.  This is the idea that is America and the framers of our constitution gave it the flexibility to change.  My heartbreak over the past few years is that the change our leadership has brought is the removal of freedoms and a culture based on fear rather than hope and purpose.  I am proud to say that I felt as if both presidential candidates took platforms that though philosophically different were both based on notions of common purpose.

Ultimately I voted for Obama not for any liberal vs. conservative stance but simply because I thought he is the kind of leader we need in this age and as a Christian I can no longer morally support Republicans.  All that I have witnessed under the current banner of "Republican" is a bastardization of Christianity, war mongering, the cultivation of fear, anti-intellectualism and the sanctification of greed.  These are harsh words I know, but this is not the Kingdom Jesus spoke of.

The country has spoken, we will have a new kind of leadership, but it our responsiblity to be the Americans our founding fathers envisioned.

In the mean time...live well...laugh often...love always.

 

Delibrio Animosus,

Billy

 


Monday, November 03, 2008

why i'm still a methodist

Last fall I was one of the workshop leaders at a young adult retreat.  Essentially it was a gathering of representatives from all of the state's Wesley Foundations (campus ministries).  I can't really remember exactly what I taught, but I'm sure it was something along the lines of being ordinary radicals.  I'm seldom silent on where I think the denomination is screwing up and sometimes I end up causing others to question whether or not they would like to be a part of or leave the UMC.  Whenever I teach workshops I always try to leave plenty of free time for discussions with participants because that's where the real conversations seem to emerge.  In this case it didn't happen there, but at a Taco Bell in the next town over on the way home.  I stopped to get a burrito or something to tide me over and while I was sitting there some of the college students came in apparently to do the same.  Two hours later we were leaving for home.

Again I can't remember all the details, but I do remember a question that was asked of me by one of them.  He asked why I was still Methodist.  I used to get asked that a lot.  My standard answer is something along the lines of I love the theology, but I can't stand the way it's being expressed by the denomination.  Or rather lack of expressed.

For me it's like having an abusive alcoholic relative.  I remember what they were and what they could be again.  I see the real them in moments of clarity, but mainly that's clouded by constant streams of frustration and pain.  The temptation is just to walk away, to simply say they have run their course and now it's time to let them die.  But I love them so I hold on longer than logic suggests.  I hold on to the hope that the old Methodist way will not necessarily come alive in aging congregations but rather a new version of it may emerge through the cracks in the walls.  For all you Shane Claiborne fans out there, the original Methodist Church looked a whole lot like the Irresistible Revolution he describes.  For non-Methodists here's a few insights to that old way...

- The early Methodists didn't believe in church buildings, they went to the people in the countryside, in the mines, in the prisons and in the slums.  In fact, Francis Asbury one of the 1st circuit riders was asked to come to dedicate a new church building and was appalled to discover it had a steeple on it.  He was quoted as saying as the next thing we'll know "Methodist churches will have pipe organs".  Asbury traveled countryside on horseback sleeping on the floors of frontier cabins and living on the hospitality of strangers until his dying day.

- Many of the schools and hospitals we have today were started by the Methodists and then later turned over to the communities in the belief we should care for the whole person.  In Congo that tradition continues today.

- The term "holy roller" actually comes from a description of Methodist preachers who got so excited that they would literally fall on the ground and roll around.

- The notions of grace, and moving on toward perfection.  I get really irritated with churches that keep running totals of people they've saved and do nothing toward discipleship apart from telling people to vote republican and hate gay folks and baby killers.  John Wesley was adamant about offering the grace of God is something God promises to us and not a promise we offer to God, but understanding that once we accept that grace the natural outcropping was a life dedicated to bringing the Kingdom of God here on earth not sitting on your ass and collecting Jesus benefits.

And the list dealing with advocating for human rights went on and on and on.

There are more and they certainly had their dysfunctions back in the day, but take home this.  Where the Methodists were, education increased, hunger and suffering decreased.  People converted to Christianity because they got a taste of the Kingdom of God.

In 2000 when we did the initial research for Igniting Ministry our studies showed that the dominate impression of the United Methodist Church was that we were a denomination with "no real set of beliefs".  I've been working ever since to change that.

So I guess the answer is that I'm a Methodist or perhaps a Wesleyan because I choose to be a keeper of the old way.  And the old way tends to have a lot of friction with the current way.  But I believe it's the right way and I believe that this type of theology is exactly the Christianity that the world needs today.

In the mean time...live well...laugh often...love always,

Delibrio Animosus,

Sir Aquinas

 

 

 


Monday, October 27, 2008

connect - serve - move forward

There were two Arkansas stories on that made national news last night.  One that warmed my heart and one that broke it.

These two happened less than 30 miles from each other.  I'll admit it.  I cried like a little girl watching Extreme Home Makeover and then was shocked to hear about a school shooting at the University of Central Arkansas.  Though they're larger than we are, UCA has been Tech's historic rival.  I have friends there, so there's always a sense of dread when I read those kind of articles.

Class this morning was dominated by the subject.  It really doesn't do much good to try to lecture until they're able to get their thoughts off their chests.  So I moderate, ask a few questions, listen and then we move on the best we can.

In both of these cases communities have and will come together.  It what we do.  Suddenly the notion of helping people and calling an old friend suddenly takes a greater degree of prominence.  It's one of the reasons we built 7villages.  The folks at AxleTree Media now also have a great new volunteer management tool call "HelpRoot."  It's the idea that loving our neighbor isn't simply about lip service, but about looking at the condition of the world around and deciding you're actually going to work to make it better. 

Connect - serve - move forward.  These are the things that make the world a better place.  These are ideals that allow us to look at ourselves in the mirror and truly believe we are living deliberately.

In the mean time...live well...laugh often...love always.

Delibrio Animosus,



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